I'm antisocial, I'm unresponsive, I'm proud, I rant too much, I'm a piece of emoshit, and my attitude does have some issues. It makes perfect sense if no one cares, I totally understand. So why're you being so nice to me?
You ain't at all the things I hoped to find, but somehow, weirdly, it's quite enough. & sometimes I don't even feel like I deserve having you here.
Because when I smile, I never mean it. Okay, maybe once in a while I do, but still. It's not that I don't try, I swear I really do. When I think about it, perhaps the only reason why I smile is for you.
Come, let's go ride on the ferris wheel. (:
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Meepoh's newest entry makes me sad, and at the same time glad. I MISS BESTIE \:
Life in NJ isn't exactly yipadeedoo nowadays, in fact it tips right down to the lousy scale. But I'm happy that we still keep in touch, that our phone conversations though not as frequent are still existant, and that there're times when you miss me as much as I miss you. I'm super glad that I know I've still got you to count on, even if the whole world decides to turn its back on me I don't give a shit about it. Because I've already got what I need.
More than once I've wondered if staying in NJ was the right choice, maybe if I've hopped over to your school when I still had the chance we'd be happily together somehow. (hell, we'd have been in the same frickin cca!) For the past 6(?) years it's been like that, I guess moving on with life without you just doesn't seem quite right. Damn babe, I love you damn fucking much and you better know it.
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People tell themselves things that they don't mean, convince themselves of things that they know aren't really true.
I laugh at these idiots sometimes, but
What's so bad about a bit of self-denial anyway?
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